Tuesday, May 29, 2012
back from bkk trip. still worrying abt the awkwardness before i fly and sort of regret agreeing to go but the cheap deal is really a push factor. lucky i din regret. lots of laughter and fun and really got to know them alot more.
exams ended and i tink i did like shit. results gonna be out on 17 aug. doomsday. idk what to do now. exams just ended and i just want to rest. this one whole year had passed so fast. and really drained me out with school, netball and exams... can't imagine myself entering the workforce x.x
2nd ENL game. totally felt useless/redundant in the team tonight. can't even be a choice for a coach to put me on court. not being there for the team when needed. putting me in will probably have an even worse result.
dont like the feeling when a coach says she needs to make changes but she doesn't have the luxury to do it. it's not that i'm like that because i wants to play. it's just that feeling of being useless. for what i'm in the team.
everything's happening at the wrong time.
bkk trip, maybe i shudnt have went.
i got to work doubly, triply, quadruply hard to get to the standard the team is at now. i wish i was performing like how i did for my first SIM ivp...
starting to worry. is my passion dying off?
12:27 AM
Saturday, May 05, 2012
DISASTROUS!
that's how i end my last trg/friendly before the break.Timing, Passes, Runs, Fitness... Oh wait!! Did i just listed out all the necessary aspects of a netballer? what's gonna happen when i'm back? totally died when playing Centre. totally no threat to the defence can? suck at it. the intensity of the game gonna be so much higher den today's.. after exams, BKK. aft that i wont even have time to build up fitness before the next game i guess.
teamlist gonna be out on monday. zzzzz. the feeling of being a burden on court sucks.
exams are killing me alr. i don't know how to study. no time left. cannot be so irresponsible to give up now. #@%#^!)#^!(%)!
BAD MOOD!!!!
12:23 AM
Saturday, April 28, 2012
NSL finals is so different this year. Empty sports hall. No usual company w me. Sat w shoes for 2nd half of the game. Feels gd to catch up with her aft so long :) And old alr, dont want take photos. Last time always taking photos with idols! Haha.. Headed home aft the closing ceremony.
Watching the actions of the game really made me regret not trying hard enuf. What is the feeling of being able to play on that court, with people cheering you on especially your own family?? I guess i wont be able to experience that anymore.
Haiyo really miss jie and xx! 1wk since they flew.. Time for books before dinner... No life :(
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6:46 PM
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
In sch and done w breakfast.. Can hear the slping bugs marching towards me already.. Exams in 3 wks and im so lost in studies that I dont know how to study alr..
Whole body's super tired from training ytd.. Individual session from ms huang cause mel's late.. Really need to work on my placement of the ball and all.. Really suck at defending...
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7:47 AM
Sunday, April 22, 2012
NSL ytd.. shocking loss from Mannas. and today they lost to Dolphins. oh man :( 1 player really makes big diff.. be it 1 player who cant play or 1 addition to the team.. dinner and sent the tortoises back..
lunch with the girls this afternoon @ tampopo. and i'm super thirsty after tt... jie and xx flew off to guangzhou alr :( :( 11 days!! so long la.. Still rmb I used to tear after I sent mummy off. Super mo yong. hahah!! Today, almost.... HAHAH lucky never, cnt so lousy.. just really hate 离别的场合...
time pass so fast.. always lidat when it's nearing exams. havent been touching much of books aft fri... time of the month and cramps tortured me on and off for the whole day. using it as an excuse to not study tonight. zzzz..
going to sch with a big bag and i predict that i'll be late, walking into class like a queen (as usual). 3 hours of training tmr night. I really hope no cramps tmr....
11:24 PM
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Finally saw jie today! Dk hw long i havent see her, think since last wk? Lots of updates :) So happy that i got my earpiece/earphones. Dk what you call tt... With jie "sponsoring" me the 6 earbuds. Hahahah. But she's gonna fly to GZ soon!!! :( i also want to go. Dont want to study.. But den i promise her to study hard w tt new earpiece!
Happiest trg ever since i went back for trg this yr.. Ahmei and dee finally back.. Hope they'll continue training. If amily's back, even better! Havent felt so tired for too long.. Dk why.. Really panting like crazy. Need to do smth abt my fitness... And im sure im gonna start aching tmr/sun...
Nv really study today. Gonna give myself a break for studying hard from mon-thurs by gg to watch nsl semis tmr =D hope tmr night can be productive. Sunday wont hv time for work too i guess.. Ahma's praying thingy nx wk, 2/3 days gone again.. Zzzz
Time for bed :)
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2:17 AM
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
a week since i blogged.. let's see.. mundane boring life, everyday wake up, brunch, study, dinner, sleep. had been repeating this cycle for the past 3 days. zzzzzzzz.. nx few days too i guess... ytd, 1.5 hrs into class and left class alr. Mr Pryor is really talking to the ants, kept mumbling and mumbling. headed back to nyp to study instead.
was rather surprised by the girls' determination to get jie back. refusing to give in and insisted on giving it a try! *claps* on the other hand, was super pissed at Yucks for her words and thick skin. omg. really lastwarning to her! nuff abt her. make my mood bad only..
back for llab10 trg on monday. extra trg for enl squad. 2hr45mins of trg.. lousy stamina leads to lousy runs + lousy passes + lousy placements... aching (as usual) today and left calf had been super tight since ytd. glad that there's no cramp yet. heck.. shall just do my best during trgs. whether get into team, say again then... but seriously dk how to cope playing in div 2. i know myself, i'm not up to it. as of now.... got lots to buck up, esp after exams and BKK trip. omg!
time to get back to books and finish up the notes..... zzzzzz
11:33 PM
